I think I am going to tackle the second part first, if I may. My family isn't dysfunctional because they are human and make mistakes like everyone else in the world, that I do not hold against them but there are some underlying statements that can describe them well. I am the kind of person to where often I love my select few of friends more than I love my family. I have a big problem with one of my younger brothers, you can say he's experiencing a "bildungsroman" or that coming-of-age thing as a pre-teen. We have encountered a lot of issues as to where I question whether I actually do love him or not, I just know I am committed to him only because he's my brother. I feel terrible for not loving him but I come to reason that it's not his fault and that I've through it too -we all do.
As far as romantic wise, I am not really great with the intimate relationships, I've only been "in love" once and I fell on my face with that. When it boils down, we were committed to each other but due to the fact that we were still young, in high school, him being a year older than me; the love wasn't allowed to shine through. It is difficult to put the whole "love" thing in words. It doesn't really exist in my world because it confuses me and it just contradicts my relationships, whether it be with family or a significant other. I'll stick with commitments for now since the tend to be more natural, I want love to come to me in the best measures possible without my feelings being hurt.
-I hope this post makes since and is clear :)
Hey Tina, your post makes complete sense to me because I have been there. Siblings are annoying, and to the extent that they completely hate each other. Every house has issues among children like sibling rivalry, which is perfectly normal. In fact you are being considerate by acknowledging the reason of your brother’s problem, which is probably the difficult age. I also appreciate your commitment towards him as an older sister. You are smart girl to understand that high school love generally never lasts forever. I like your optimism about love. You are very young and there are plenty of opportunities in life to meet the right one, so good luck!
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